Hi all. Hope you guys are doing better. Kinda in this weird place and id love some input any iput at all. Life is on hold cause of this horrible disease. Been so depressed lately. So i hv been on movicol for 4 months and well.
though i have soft BMs there is always a feeling of tearing all around and a sort of burning sensation upon STARTING my bm. Just at the beginning. nothing during the bm but then also afterwards i get this soreness. I dont think its the fissure. and when i get the feeling of BM i also get pain BEFORE initinating the BM right inside the anus. apart from this i get this werid burning and felling like pins in my perineum (area bw anus and balls) whenevr i walk or sit likely cuz of friction. Like the hair down there irritating the skin. If i sit to log at a sofa the entire area feels raw. I think the skin of that area has gone too thin and im deathly afraid it may not be like before. Also i feel like the softer the bm, more the burning overall. If its hard then more pain initially but not so much burning. sometimes even farts burn.
I dont understand why any of this is happening. I want my life back so much