When I wake up in the morning and if I've had a particularly good night's sleep, I lie in bed and actually feel great because I don't normally feel any sign of the fissure and hope for one moment, that this might be "IT" - the day I get up and it's all over and I am back to normal again... Then I head to the bathroom for the first BM....and then because I get a twinge of pain whilst going, know disappointingly, that "No" it's still there and sure enough, after the progression of some time, can feel the discomfort and familiar twinging and aching and itching that continues on & off then for the rest of the day.....
...On a bad day, one which I generally wake up, feeling like I just haven't slept...It all seems to be so much worse and painful and whilst I sip my chamomile tea, actually start laughing about it all (sleep depravation I think!), because it seems ridiculous & neverending. I've even named the fissure "Fizz", my fistula, pilonidol sinus - whatever is, "Pilo" and my ocassional external hemmie, "Percy"!!...It kind of adds a touch of humour to it all....
Funnily on the days I wake up feeling worse, they tend to go/ end not so badly and on the good days, I'm normally back to the normal pain at the end of the day and feel even more disillusioned!!
How does everyone start their days??
How do you all feel when you wake up...With hope? Dread? ....or do you accept it and try not to think about it first thing???
Just curious!!! and thought it would be interesting to share....
Healing hugs to all x x