thank you all so much for the quick reply.feels so good to have others support.i think noone understands unless theyve been through it
Welcome to the forum!
I know how it feels to be alone. I had my fissure for YEARS! and i didn't even know it. I would have the spasms and I never knew what they were. I never ever talked to anyone about it, not even a doctor, because I was so embarassed. The one time I tried, the doctor gave me this quizzical look, and i just said "never mind, never mind." I was still pretty young at that point, so I guess no one took me seriously.
Originally, my fissure was diagnosed as a hemorrhoid. What a relief it was to finally get a correct diagnosis! Look through lots of the surgery posts here, it is the best way to get an idea of what you can expect. Keep in mind though, that everyone heals differently, and if someone had a particularly tough time, it doesn't mean that you will. I was very scared of my surgery and I had the exact same fears that you did. Yet, I simply did not have any other options, I had a chronic fissure, and while I did end up getting a very supportive doctor (which made me feel a lot better), I still had my doubts.
I think that this is going to be the right move for you. It will be tough having a new baby around, but, you really need to take the time to heal yourself and not struggle to take care of your new little one, as difficult as that is going to be. I certainly will pray for you. Your story is actually another fear of mine. I am only 24, but I think that when I have children, the fissure is going to open up again, and I will have to go through it all over again! Wait and see.
I think your on the right track. Ask as many questions as you want here! People are very supportive and helpful.
Welcome to the family,
Kate