by happyass » 23 Jul 2007, 08:03
good morning dear diary,
yesterday was a delicious day of eating but not very healthy and yet, i had 2 bms that were soft and easy to evacuate. i feel that something is working in helping me with the new feel and regularity again. is it the aloe vera juice that i take 3 times a day? is it the acai treats? or the new chinese herbs for constipation that my chinese doc gave me? is it really taking the fish oil and flax daily now? is it a combination of these things? because i know that i haven't been able to eat the best and well, i have been lucky that my ass has truly been a happyass and my little sentinle pile/skin tag/thingy has returned to being a jolly soul at the amusement park and letting me enjoy my days.
i must admit that one of my weaknesses in traveling and staying at a hotel is the breakfast buffet. since i have been eating cereals and now miso soups and what not, i truly enjoy a hotel buffet breakfast and yesterday i did that. i managed to stay away from eggs as i love freshly made vegetable omelets with cheese but i that would be too yang and i am soooo yang. so i actually ate a big bowl of oatmeal with granola and sliced bananas. i didn't bother putting in the brown sugar or raisins. then i had a big belgian waffle made for me and i added some butter, maple syrup, strawberry topping and was in heaven. i also thought the sausage links here were dynamite! i ate four. two with my first belgian waffle and then two more with my second belgian waffle. my mistake was tasting the breakfast potatoes as they were seasoned just right and so hot. and then i made the potatoes even more irresistable by adding the house made mexican salasa that would be prefect with huevos rancheros - to the potatoes. and i was like sent in orbit. i ended up having 3 helpings of those potatoes with mexican salasa. and i still wanted more but i really tried to listen to my body as i was already full. having the chocolate milk, apple juice, water and delightful hot green tea helped filling me up. i know normally, i could eat more than this but i was taking my time and enjoying my meal.
i had a bm like 2 hours later and it was perfect and easy. i squatted of course.
then i had my afternoon meetings and for late lunch, i had my acai frozen treat at jamba juice. yummy.
had an afternoon bm and it was fine too. it came out quickly, felt like i had the runs, but everything was formed just a bit thinner in diameter.
i went with a coworked for dinner at about 8 pm to cheesecake factory of all places. i had the vietnamese spring rolls (very macro friendly) but i ordered the pork chops with spinach and mashed potatoes. i said **** it because for like the last 3 years i have always wanted to order those pork chops. tasty but not orgasmic. i ate one pork chop slowly by cutting it up in small pieces and felt bad that i sent the 2nd yummy big pork chop back because i was happy with my 1 chop. ate all my mashed potatoes and spinach. yummy. and of course, i ate chocolate cake on top of everything. i was stuffed. i left some of the cake left over too.
and for late night, i had a smaller bm. also easy.
denver has been a very nice experience and tonight is my last night. it's like i wish i could stay a few more days. at least i will remember that when i turned 37, i was in denver. so it is nice to be here as i get older, fatter, and well, having better bms than i normally have on business travel.
if i could ask for anything for my bday diary, it would be for the health of my mom to be great and that she passes her cancer screening in september with no problems at all. that she may continue to do well on quitting smoking and that she also begins to eat well and have her depression lifted. secondly i would offer my pain in the ass to those who are suffering here and are trapped in a state of anxiety. i know i was there and even though my road to recovery has had it sets backs with the pile or what have you, i wish others to continue with their progress to being happyasses too. i also would like to offer my pain to those little children suffereing from cancer and not knowing if their lives will be shortened or not. may they find the peace and happiness in their struggles which will always be more than whatever i have had to struggle with my damn fissure.
i am touched by the interview i saw of the belated tammy fae and how colon cancer really screwed up her life. i thank you that you gave me this problem so that i could get the courage to start thinking about my colon and get a colonoscopy. i truly hope that i will not have to deal with any type of cancer. tammy i am thinking of you. over the weekend, bush had 5 polyps removed. and he previously had more polyps removed. thank you for not having any polyps in my colon this time.
i want to be healthy and happy. and i should focus more on the gift of everyday rather than what i don't have or can't have or didn't do or failed to do. i am who i am today and i have what i have today and today is what i've got. i embrace it all.
you have given me so much life God and so much to be thankful, even my fissure, these wonderful people on the board, and my pets and friends and family.
i need to remind myself of that every day.
happy monday diary :-)