I'm happy to report that I'm healing. When I first suspected it, I didn't want to speak or type it...silly superstitious fear I guess. But I am! I'm healing! This post is to share my experience, strength, and hope (ES&H!!) to my fellow sufferers.
It started late May of this year, 2013. Intense, non-stop pain that was relentless and showed no mercy. It took me 6 weeks to get to a CSR...then 8+ weeks on nifidipene (spelling?)...then botox...two hemmies from hell descended after botox and that was the worst 1.5 weeks of this entire experience. Then no pain...a relapse...and now very little pain for several weeks. I'm standing longer and can even sit for a spell now.
Once I found this forum my healing skyrocketed. Because I scoured this forum, took every suggestion and put it into action. From my diet, to Manuka honey, to coconut oil, to aloe gel, to squatting, to sitz baths. I have no earthly clue as to what worked. One or all...I really have no clue.
Threee were essential, though...first, my diet. I had to figure what worked for me. Most say no raw veggies. Well, that didn't work for me... Soluable fiber in the start of the day, followed by insoluable. I must eat a carrot towards the end of the day (chewed to smithereens!!!)(My mother-in-law used to say carrots are like little "scrubbers"!) followed by a high fiber cereal a few hours later, then Miralax. I eat most of my food in the middle of the day. Placement is huge! If I don't place the right foods at the right time of day, I don't evacuate all my stool. NOT good.
Second, Coconut oil inserted at night and before BM was and is a life saver! Great stuff and smells really good too! I tried every way to get that magic potion in with 7 epic fails, and finally found this...I take the black nozzle tip of a Preparation H tube, the long one's with holes on sides and tip, and put in some Aloe gel. Then I take a Qtip and scoop in some room temp solid coconut oil. Lube up the outside with more co, gently insert and using the Qtip I gently push the magic potion up my bootay! Works freaking wonders! (I hope your getting the picture!)
Third, meditation. It's been nothing but a blessing. A huge part of my recovery. I have to keep my head in the right place and this saved me. It was so difficult in quieting my mind, quieting my body, my screaming butt but I kept at it and it worked. I now slip into meditation easily. I no longer cry 15x a day. I no longer think I'll never heal. Search "Meditations" topics on this forum...I posted six of my favorites.
I was so hopeless when I found you. Now, I know I will fully recover one day. I found what's working for me and I pray you find what works for you.
ES&H