So yesterday completely sucked except for the fact that the nurses and staff were sooo ridiculously, over-the-top nice and professional. I have to say that the whole crew yesterday, everyone from the security guards, to the secretaries and assistants, to the driver that they arranged to take me home, were genuinely some of the nicest people I have ever met in my life. And I'm sure everyone who has ever undergone any surgery knows it makes all the difference when you are nervous and in pain.

That said, I gotta say that I'm very skeptical at this point that any procedure will ever heal this wound, and I am wondering whether or not I'll just be tortured with failed surgery after surgery until I give up and/or die. For anyone with an actual fissure, that is to say, one that they got from pooping/muscle spasm, I would by all means give this procedure strong consideration before LIS. There should be a paper out on it in the next few months. When I woke up, I was told I have a scarred up anus, which is to be expected from all my prior surgeries, so I could not be dilated to the extent that is typically done for typical cases. I was also told that my "fissure" was very superficial, but much broader than is typical, which is of course because mine is not a fissure at all, but remnants of a too-large surgical wound. That confirms my long held belief that the first guy used an ice-cream scoop instead of a scalpel, and the darn thing just won't close even though it looks very healthy and viable. One of these surgeons better heal me or just kill me soon. I'm on fumes.

Asdf,
I was thinking of you and lo-and-behold I see your post here.
Now that the procedure is done, all we can do is hope for the best. If you are satisfied that you were in good hands, then that's a very good sign to begin with. It is too soon to say anything and I can understand how frustrating it is to do the wait and watch game but we must do it.
I Burst into tears and bawled my eyes out when Dr. Feingold told my husband that he didn't give me the kenalog injection because he couldn't see anything wrong with me. So, I know how terribly saddening it is to feel like no one can fix us. But like you had said earlier, one must keep searching. But right now, please try to take it easy. You owe at least that much to yourself.
I'm sending you healing vibes!

SSK

You're right about that. I just have to wait and see, even if I think that I need either a larger flap or a temporary colostomy bag to get this wound to heal. But now I have to wait 6 weeks, and then I'll go in and say, "still there" and he'll look and say, "but it looks very superficial, 99%, granulating, healthy, viable, blah blah, 6 more weeks" and I'll be long since unemployed or completely bankrupt before eventually opting for another surgery, finances permitting, where the process will repeat, until one of these times they either accidentally kill me, or cause even more irreparable damage.

asdf, My heart goes out to you. I know how horrible this is but you have to stick to it. I'm praying that things get better, and better. We all know how long this can take. You have had it real bad, I wish i could do more.

Asdf..... We are all routing for you, please try and stay positive...... This might just have done the trick, you don't know if it has failed... It's waaay to early to tell.
Take it easy.... And give it the best chance to work.

OMB xx

So now I have diarrhea and I have to get a stool culture to check for a life-threatening bacteria called C.Diff. Called it.

I hope you are ok???

I'm OK right now. I had a mild fever yesterday and still have some diarrhea which is concerning two days out of surgery, especially since I never ever ever get sick. The last time I had a stomach bug was probably 10 years ago. So they did some blood-work and a poop test at a clinic to check it out. Blood work is fine, poop test is still in the works to check for that bug. I googled it and scared myself pretty good. To boot I got my first dose of actual LMA general anesthesia as well on Tuesday, and I'm still getting palpitations and just feel off. I actually woke up in recovery to skipping beats and to the nurses talking about my irregular heartbeat. It still hasn't gone away. I'm not even focused on my fissure. I'm at my wit's end.

Hang in there asdf, you know it will take a while. We are all here to support you.

You've had such a tough time of it........ My heart goes out to you. My fingers are crossed for a speedy recovery for you asdf.