I'm sorry to hear that

its just so rubbish isn't it. I think after i get lis I'll be so proud that i faced my fears maybe thats why we need to get this surgery to push through this like big girls. Im I just so scared of surgery i know i need it.
I don't get spasms well it doesn't feel like my muscle is spasming. I get an ache and or random sharp up the bum type of pain and a constant soreness like an open wound sore/pain to the point that i do things slowly an it hurts to sit even just bending down on the way to sit down hurts, walking hurts, coughing hurts, passing wind hurts, and this pain is on my mind kind of pain can't think clearly. Its only just subsided now and its 5.30pm, I've had constant pain since 7.30am so 10hours of pain. I had 2 bms this morning which does not help. There is nothing worse then having a chronic sore fissure after a bm to then need another bm 10mins later i literally nearly cried i try not to cry in pain anymore an just try get on with it.