Alyssa, I'm so sorry for what you've been enduring. I think everyone on this board knows firsthand how painful and debilitating this condition is.
I want to ask if anyone else has tried Dr. Butler's Fissure and Hemorrhoid Ointment? I've been using it for 2-3 weeks and at first I really didn't like using it - the numbness can be uncomfortable. But I got used to it and have been using it a few times a day every day and it seems to be helping a bit. My spasms seem to be less intense, though I do still have some pain and discomfort.
The above said, I'm also wondering if anyone else experiences more pain when stressed? I think stress was the culprit in causing my constipation which caused my recurring fissure(s). And when I get anxious and stressed, my butt starts to throb in pain. I don't manage stress too well, i.e. I tend to hold things inside instead of having outlets for it.