Hi, friends! Long time sufferer, lurker, so on so forth. To make a long story short, I've had about a million procedures done and as of Thursday last week, it was decided that my chute is just too tight. SO FUN. However, during the exam and ultrasound (they thought I had a rectocele, I did not, I just cannot empty my bowel properly because I am just far too anal,) I believe it severely aggravated my bum's normal response of "You wanted a fissure? How about 12."
Now I've had chronic fissures for years, but never this bad. I am to the point I have stopped eating to avoid a bowel movement, and every time I go, I am on the verge of vomiting. This is, mind you, with: Recticare (lidocaine), nupercainal (dibucaine), vaseline, metamucil in my system, nothing but liquids, and acetaminophen. I am the OPPOSITE of constipated, which is a huge part of the problem-- my IBS is very active due to anxiety over the whole thing. Flood gates are opened and aggressive.
I'm not quite sure what else there is to do at this point, I've tried everything I know how to do and have read what TO do. I can't begin to try and describe this pain-- and I've BEEN THROUGH SOME PAIN. Sitz baths do nothing, really, the medications I have do nothing-- I do not know how long I have to wait for these things to heal, and it's (technically) sunday morning, so I have no doc to speak to until potentially monday, if I'm lucky, unless I go to the ER. Which I'd like to avoid... Maybe I should just hop by there, but last time I went there for a 'rectal' issue, they couldn't do anything for me.
I suppose I am just wondering if there are any magical things I have not thought of, or perhaps a suggestion to head to the ER or something to last me this next day and a half or so until I can talk to my regular doctor would calm me. Hearing that someone else has nearly though they were dying trying not to eat so that they didn't have to have a bowel movement and knowing I'm not alone, here, haha. (I'm losing my mind, I'm so hungry for actual food )
UH, ANYWAYS, CHEERS, LOVE Y'ALL.