Hello all.
New to the forum here but not new to fissures. I started getting fissures around 5 years ago. Kinda figured out what they were when I had my wife take a look. They never affected my life much. A few days to a week of pinching when going to the bathroom, sometimes a blood streak and my day moved on. I think my worst ever was maybe 2 weeks of some uncomfortable bowl movements and maybe 10 mins of discomfort after. They never got me down. I even was able to joke about them.
Right now I am dealing with something I have never dealt with before. It has taken over my life for the last 2 weeks. I can see the fissure in a mirror when squatting. It is huge and deep! I will feel fine then as soon as a turd comes close to my anus the whole entire left side of my anus goes nuts. It spasms and it feels like im ripping everything open. The pain is unbearable. And the turd is pretty soft and narrow. It feels like its the size of a submarine.
Heres the problem. I have always been confused about my fissures. I have never been constipated a day in my life, I eat a diet better than anyone I know, I am extremely active. (run 20-30 miles a week, bicycle, hike, snowshoe). My stools are what I believe to be always soft. The only thing I can think of is stress? And now im so worked up with this one that my spinchter goes into a panic when I go to have a bowl movement. I am 39 years old male. I am in one of the most stressful periods of my life. Im used to a really laid back stress free life. Going through some things right now.
I have a HUGE fear of doctors. This is so bad I just scheduled an appointment for a colon rectal surgeon (im not messing around. At this point I know more about these than a general doctor would so im going right to a specialist). I am hoping at 2 weeks I am catching this early enough to be fixed but I am really nervous how deep this thing is. I feel like the doctor is gonna be blown away by it. (hoping not). Anyone on here able to see their own fissure and how large it was or is?
Any words of comfort would be great right now. Im feeling pretty down about this.