Feeling very down today, was a painful and bloody BM and I feel like I am back to where I was three months ago. Stupid fissure. I think I have more setbacks than set forwards, I want to eat and I want to have energy and I want to live as I was. Going to start trying movical tonight instead of lactulose. My stools are soft but still not super soft at tip unless I am eating heaps of prunes and then I have annoying urgency. I thought about increasing the Mg but turns out I am actually using magnesium oxide free formula, I didn't see the 'free formula' bit on the bottle so thought I was taking magnesium oxide. And taking 500 mg elemental each day.
I cried too which I haven't done in ages, trying to stay strong and not let it get the better of me, I have a history of depression so I am impressed with my resilience so far. Cuddles from my boy help a lot. Still working on getting Diltiazem.