by hopefull » 31 Aug 2015, 00:40
So its been a while since I last posted. I am now 17 days of no blood, YAY! The double dose of movicol is helping a lot but it does mean that I don't have formed BM's as I'm only eating porridge, smoothies and pureed vege soup.
Today I went to the general surgeon for a check up and it was bloody awful. He saw me for literally 5 min in which time he put his finger in to no conclusion. Not sure what DR's can tell from a fingering. Anyway he just said that not having formed BM's is bad and that I should be bulking with psyllium. When I say that it hurts to bulk and will bleed if I don't keep it loose then he stares at me blankly and says that the bowel likes to be used and is more relaxed the more inflated it is just like a balloon. And I repeat by saying it will bleed every time then. He still looks at me blankly and then on his way out says see you in 6-8 weeks if it hasn't improved and he will do a proper inspection under anesthetic. I'm starting to cry as he is walking out and he and the nurse try to avoid eye contact with me. It was so depressing. I didn't get a chance to ask any questions. I want to see a different surgeon, not sure how I go about organising it, will ask my doctor to refer me to someone else.
I still have pain not bad just annoying. What worries me is that since I am keeping it so loose that the fissure will heal tight and then one day when I get back to the normal sized stool that the fissure will be too weak to handle it and split open again.
I finally managed to get diltiazem, in gel form. Very expensive. It feels good to put up so hopefully it is doing something positive.
Ugh, so confused again. My plan was to double dose the movicol for a few months of serious healing with loose stools and then start to slowly bulk up. Might go over to the success stories page to see if this is how others have done it.
AF since Jan '15 postpartum
Taking: Lax-sachets, flaxseed oil, Mg
Topical: Diltiazem, Sudocrem
Circulation: Warm wheat bag, relax, short walks
Tried: Rectogesic, slippery elm, Lactulose