Hi everyone,
I like many of you found this site in the middle of a desperate moment feeling like I will never recover.
I had a traumatic birth 4 months ago and got my first AF a couple of weeks after giving birth but didn’t start to deal with it for a few weeks after that as had so much pain (episiotomy, year etc) I couldn’t work out what the pain was or isolate it.
I have been on diltiazem ointment for months and have not seen an improvement. It is agony when I go to the toilet and the spasms last hours.
I was really struggling to get my bowel movements consistent and soft, was going from hard to diarrhoea without anything inbetween.
I have just started taking fybrogel once a day and milled flaxseed on my weetabix in the morning, along with drinking 3 litres of water a day. I’m breastfeeding so need a lot! I also still take lactoluse. But it’s still agony.
I’m trying really hard to self soothe but don’t feel I’m getting anywhere. I do a bath every day which soothes while I am in there.
I haven’t been able to see the CRS due to covid lockdown but I have now been booked in for the Botox treatment and a removal of heamrroid on 16 June
From what I’ve read I’m terrified it is going to make things worse not better and I feel so low. It’s really affected these first few months with my baby and it’s affecting my relationship with my husband as I don’t think he understands the pain and how low it makes me.
I try to do some exercise every day - is there anything else I can do?
Or any advice ahead of the Botox surgery?
Thanks x