by Conifer » 09 Oct 2021, 06:44
I’m sorry to see you are both suffering. I’ve yet to have any procedure bar the usual creams which worked then stopped working. When I look back ive been dealing with this for years on amd off but never realised what it was.
I’m now booked for lis. What a journey this has been the last few weeks and months of fissure. Booked for Botox, then postponed, now have the past few days where pain has paralysed me (literally spasms so bad I got ‘stuck’ on the sofa and couldn’t move as the pain radiated through me - husband wanted to take me to hospital). I had an emergency app with my CRS last night. He said he’d do Botox but then said the 70-80% success you see in papers is likely vastly over estimated and it’s more like 50%. He went over the risks with lis especially a female of my age but when we discussed the timeframe I’m in with having a baby (very low egg count and don’t have the luxury of time trying 1-2 Botox rounds) he agreed lis was a sensible approach to kill the fissure(s?) once and for all. If/when I’m lucky with pregnancy I will have a c-section to avoid anal trauma and he said they’d do that for me without any issues given this fissure history. So 14th November I’m on for it. Nervous as hell about recovery but I have no quality of life, can’t make plans, wake up nervous every morning with anticipation of what pain level my day brings, can’t focus at work, have cut off contact with most family and friends as I’m too sore/upset most of the time that life feels like too much effort. Ive had 2 miscarriages this year that were easier to deal with than this. The death of my father was easier to deal with than this. Writing that done really is upsetting but it’s the reality.