Lecia -
Sorry you did not find out any useful news. I am glad everything went ok. I hope your butt did ok with the long drive. Hopefully, this colonoscopy will rule some stuff out. Have you ever had one before?
Did any of the pelvic pain you have show up right after your second delivery??? Do you think most of your issues are related to that?
It will be your turn on day Lecia - You will find out what is happening and cure it. What ever happened to the MRI?
Fissy -
I am so excited eyerything went well! This is it baby! Your going to be healed - and soon. You and I sould be able to toss out our butt creams soon - I hope! :D

fiss - i'm glad your colonoscopy went well! my mom's turning 50 this year so she's scheduled for one and she's sooo nervous about it. i keep telling her it can't be that bad, so now i can tell her about your experience as proof
and i can't believe you got to SEE Your fissure!! i'm so jealous, i want to see mine on the inside!! it must be awesome to know the actual source of your continued pain. now your drs can treat it correctly!

Ha ha Juney - I wish you could see yours LOL. And it is a proof that even when they can not see it with the exam it still can be there in its full glory !!! I think that fact is very important and that if anybody has symptoms and discomfort that feels like fissure he/she should assume that it is most probably there and take all precautions necessary !!!
Best of luck to your Mom !!! It is really nothing LOL. Prep was a nightmare though , for me at least LOL !!!

Lecia
Sorry you didn't get "breaking news", but as Val says - dont' give up! As long as you are in pain there must be a reason for it! There are so many stories out there to prove that it sometimes can take a very long time to find out what's wrong with people.
Fiss
Happy that your "life after colonoscopy" is good!
Do you girls have threads were I can read your stories?
Corsica

i am happy that both of you, fissy and lecia, are doing well.
i think everything will turn out great this year for both of you.
i saw 'into the wild' last night and there were so many messages and experiences to that film that it left me breathless, sad, but also more empowered that God loves us all and is all around us.
sometimes my faith isn't the strongest but regardless of that, i know that God is always with me and He loves me.
what i am trying to say is that even in your darkest moments and when there seems to be no answers in sight, you are being taken care of someone very special who will not let you down.
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fissy, wasn't your golytely flavored? it comes in cherry, lime, and tropical punch!!!! i got orange. not quite like tang but it was what it was.
i am glad you had a great colo-xperience.
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lecia, hang in there. seeing an alternative specialist would be a great idea. i am not sure what to say clinically, but spiritually, i know you are amazing and beautiful and wonderful and special and super that all of this will be explained soon enough.
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off for another 3 hour trek on the jogging trails. marathon is about nine weeks away......

Thank you dear ones for your prayers and support.
I didn't write much the other day because I was discouraged and didn't want to sound down since we had a lot to celebrate with Fissy getting through her ordeal.

I had an CT and US when I was in the hospital this summer with the abdominal pain and vomiting/diarrhea episode. Neither of them showed anything out of the ordinary. Based on this the doctors at WF have decided that it wouldn't be a good use of resources "low yield" is what the call it, to have an MRI. The GYN now thinks that exploratory surgery is overkill and could cause more adhesions from going on and she isn't convinced that is what is causing my problems. So, I am off to see another doctor to see if she thinks there could be any worth ordering other tests.

I just sat in the exam room and cried and said "I know I am not worth it" which I know sounds crazy but that is what I felt like. That they had decided that any other testing/investigation isn't likely to produce much and I probably have idiopathic pain. I don't know that I believe that entirely as I still have this area that is swollen from the hematoma but now the doctor thinks that it isn't what is causing my pain. But he did agree that a colonoscopy could be indicated since I have never had one since I have had all of these problems since daughter #2 was born- 5 1/2 years ago.

I even tried to tell the gyn of some other newer symptoms I am having but you could tell she had already written me off.

So, we still search and if there is nothing to fix, then to try to find a way that I can live as close to a normal life as possible.

Thank you to everyone. You are an inspiration to me.

No, it is you who inspire us all.

I can only second a Kim , buddy - you are our strength and our guiding light :sprinkleheart: . I was crying after admission while I was alone not because of fear but of still not believing what is happening to me and that I am where I am in my life. I prayed to God to heal me , not so much that I get rid of pain but to get a signal that I am not forgotten or unloved by him :( . I understand you always my baby-Lecia - never ever think that you are not worth of anything , you are worth of everything and more !!! AND it just has to be returned to you buddy - it just has to !!!!!
Happy - thank you so much for your beautiful post - it was just what our souls needed to hear - how did you know buddy !!!??? I was crying half way through it , God bless you Garret You are absolutely right - we just have to hold on hope and our faith that we are all loved and taken care of on some other level !
Corsi - I don't think I have a thread but if you want to read my LIS story maybe you can look at my posts that date December 2007.
Hope you are all doing great today my "bestest" friends in the whole world !!!!

Lecia -
You are worth everything sweetie! I am so sorry your were down. It makes me so sad when your not feeling good. I know it is hard when you look forward to an appointment and then it feels like the doctor just writes you off. You are a wonderful person Lecia. The issue here is that there is someone out there who can heal you and you have not found them yet. I know you can heal, we just need to find the right doctor for you. You will be healed, I am sure of it - PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP!! You inspire all of us here - you are worth millions to me!
My great doctor, the one who I love so much made me feel bad before surgery. We had a miscommunication. He told me if he saw any hemmies he would take care of them and I agreed. Then the nurse came in the room to take me to the OR and I saw her holding some paperwork that said LIS and hemmerhoidectomy! I started crying and I said, "No I am prepared for LIS, but not a hemmieectomy". I am in the middle of the semester and I don't have the time to take off from school. I know how long it takes to heal from that surgery. The nurse went and talked to the CRS at the nurses station and he said, "OMG - she cries all the time". Then he talked to me and told me it was not a hemmiectomy - it was the "S" thing. He did not know I heard and I still respect him, but it did hurt my feelings. It is true I usually cry when I see him, but he has no idea about how much emotional upset these butt issues have caused me.
It probably was the sclerotherapy that I got, but he just described it as cauterizing and zapping and when I read the definition on wikipedia, it said sclerotherapy was an injection. I'll find out and let you know. It does seam to be the only treatment that starts with an S.

You are so sweet, Jen! I am just so touched by your words. Thank you for telling me the story about your doctor and what he said about you. I know that my docs probably get together and say, "what a psycho that lady is" since every doc at WF has seen me reduced to tears. I just feel so out of control of my emotions right now. It is like I couldn't stop them even if I tried. But I have to make a good impression on the next two doctors or maybe they won't want to help me.

How is your pain? I hope you get a good night rest. Is your husband taking some time off to take care of the little one?

Thanks for talking to me.