From what I have read, you seem very worried and even upset. Maybe I can ease your mind some (are you a little OCD about worry, just kidding!)

The stinging after the BM is normal, I had it and it usually took 5-15 minutes for it to settle down after a BM, I always jumped in hot water or a hot tub right after a BM and took my mepergan *before* the Bm to keep this to a minimum. Don't worry, it will get better in just a few days! I am sure!
I have a few questions for the LISers -
1. Did you feel like you had swelling down there? I feel like I have a piece of paper in between my butt or a small ball. Do you all ever remember feeling this???
2. How long did you bleed for?
3. Did you guys ever sit on a heating pad? I don't know if that would make it worse or better?
4. Did anyone attempt to look at the incsicion? I think mine is in a weird place. It looks like it is on my posterior end compared to ware it is supposed to be (laterally) It actually looks like I have the worlds largest fissure on that end (the opposite end of where my original fissure was) I can only assume this is not a fissure and is the incision. Maybe with the swelling, it looks dislocated. It is still oozing blood.
1. Yes, but to me it felt like a leathery pad down there. That may last about 3 weeks, so don't give up the ship!
2. I bled less and less for about two months, each week saw less. but even now if I have a really hard BM I might bleed, from time to time. Don;t let the blood worry you, your fissure is not nearly healed yet, but "WHAT ABOUT YOUR SPASMS??"
Are they gone?
YAY!

Now that your sphincter is relaxed, blood is flowing to your fissure, those little platelets are damming up the dike, and in about 1 -2 months that booger is gonna close up and get better! But you still have the fissure, in a healing environment, not a tight one...
3. Yes, lets talk about sitting, Jen! The heating pad is OK, but sitting....
WHY ARE YOU SITTING????? Get off your butt, it just got cut last week, lie down! Don't put all that pressure directly on your incision by sitting. Wait another few days and then slowly work back into sitting, but avoid it now, and lie around and rest!!
4. Now, why on EARTH would I want to look at the incision? Right after the trauma of surgery, and the cut, it is gonna look BAD!! To be honest, I never really tried to look at my fissure, either, that was the Dr.s job! But I can't fault anyone for wanting to see their fissure. But *you* don;t need to see anything right now, let it heal some and don't sit on it (anymore than you must!)
I could send you a photo of my healed anus, if you like.,.. NO I AM JUST KIDDING (see Lecia's post from yesterday!)




But seriously, relax some. Do you still feel 80% improved? expect some trauma and stinging during BM, your butt is a mess right now, a chocolate mess (remember the M&M's commercial!) but now it can heal.
Sorry I wasn't around. I am now, so fire away with questions and I'll get back to you pronto, girl!!