Lurker,
you can message me any time you would like. I know exactly where you are coming from! Please know many of us have had very positive results with LIS. I'm sending you tons of positive links tonight when I get time. Remember they are the ones who disappear from here and never even come to the internet for support. Tony, a few others, and I are rare cases of hanging around after positive, uneventful recoveries. Believe me they happen all the time or the success statistics wouldn't be so high! :) You're going to be surprised Buddy, it's nothing like I expected... Hang in there! I understand your anxiety. I cried so much the day of my surgery that my CRS and I were laughing at my post-op appointment about how she told them to hurry and knock me out.
I know we can't take away all your fears, but you really are doing the right thing. I expect in a couple of weeks you will be jumping for joy. I know I was :)
Just think by the time the holidays roll around you will be a new man, eating some yummy food with your mostly fissure friendly diet, water, and stool softener(LOL)! It really will be better than your fissure days!!
Take deep breaths, and go into denial if you have too until that day comes, just go about life and stay as busy as you can. You're taking control and getting your life back!