by Ever the Optimist » 14 Nov 2012, 18:09
Truly wise words from Jr2!
Yes, it affects us all and I hit rock bottom. I'm prone to suffering from mild depression and slightly OCD, so going through these issues made me 100 times worse and I became obsessive about the whole issue, depressed to the point I didn't want to get up in the morning because I didn't want to deal with the day ahead. I too felt I'd be better off just not being here anymore but immediately curbed those thoughts by looking at all the good around me, the love for my family & friends.
AD's helped me immensely (OK not for everyone but given my history, they were what I needed at the time) and they lifted me through the dark cloud I was stuck under and made me develop a much more positive attitude towards it all and gave me the strength and determination to get through it all.
There is way through this for you I really believe that. It's just getting there, finding what works for you and if surgery is your only option, then consider it. You WILL get there. People do get through this. There are many success stories on this site......just hang in there and try and channel those negative thoughts into something more positive and keep yourself distracted too with hobbies. Shift your focus from your bottom to anything else!!!
Keep perservering! and if you feel terrible again, post your feelings, so we can provide you the support you need again.
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