Hey Juney,
Sorry you are having such a terrible day. Healing from this kind of stuff never seems to be straightforward which makes is so difficult because each day is unpredictable.
Would you be willing to try a senna supplement (500 mg) before bed or drink some prune juice? I find that prune juice or eating a few prunes nearly liquifies my stool especially the first few times when my body isn't used to.
Just hang in there because your day in the sun is coming!