Dear Juney,
Im so sorry juney.I really feel for you.It is unfair and u dont deserve it.But please please get help since you are feeling so low.As kim has mentioned,please try to find a good doctor.why dont you find out from others on this board whom they recommend.not sure where u live.Dont give up now.There is light at the end of the tunnel.
Please dont throw up ur food juney.you need good nutrition and tabby has mentioned the risks.
Please talk to someone.
You are in my prayers