Thanks Corsi
You are absolutely right ! Nobody that did not have a fissure can understand how much frustration it is to have one :( and one can clearly see sometimes in the eyes of a doctor that "smirk" in the eyes and the smile and almost can "hear" their thoughts : " This one has nothing better to do but think about poop and look at her feces whole day". "I have people here dying of cancer and going through chemo and she complains abut butt irritation and iron pills , what a twit "!!!
So we comply at the end with what "doctor prescribed" just to show that we are not "twits" only to find ourselves in agony of pain again and in complete humiliation and feeling of helplessness and even self loathing for not listening to our own instincts and saying "no, thank you very much".
Do you now what I have to do now every morning for 3 days ??? - collect my own poop and take it to the lab for analysis

Why? Just because I complained about Fe causing diarrhea and having stomach pains - she wants to check for parasites

like I just came "off the boat" from Urunda Burundi

. It is like - OK , now you think twice before you complain about anything

. And so forth- I mean, sometimes I feel like writing whole book about today's medical practices and their inaptness and emotional abuse they inflict - which I probably would if my English was more fluent.
I highly doubt that I will end up getting any iron in any special form since I discovered that they are not covered by insurance if ferritin level is not below 10, and that injections (not even infusion) cost about $2,000 - I wonder where they get their iron - Pluto ???
All in all, my dear friend , I will try , but I do not have high hopes...
I hope that your pain is less today

and don't give up yet on Botox

- you came loooong way and need just little bit more time to heal it completely ! I wanted LIS to have a permanent solution but as we can see here on the forum, it is not a magic procedure either - one has to be careful forever no matter what

After all of my experiences with doctors here I was honestly scared to try it after I was handed a "consent form" - in a different situation I might have try it. LiS definitely gave me my life back since painful spasms stopped immediately and my fissures heal back fast - but it is obvious that once this area is compromised - one has to take care of it to the rest of
one's life

I was soooo upset when one of my friends told me to just learn to live with it - now I wonder if she was right ? Even Freud once advised that if one day you wake up with one leg and one hand - only thing that you need to do is to start crawling on that one leg and one hand . I know that it sounds morbid and inhumane and senseless - but maybe life is exactly that - senseless LOL !
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