First things first, I am new here but I've been searching for some info here for quite a long time. I'll try to make thing as clear as possible. 25 y/o gay men (I don't usually say this first thing but thought it was pertinent) diagnosed with chronic AF for 3 years now but having it since 6 years now and always the same one. Got a wrong diagnostic first, thought it was a wart then got to a STD specialist who didn't do anything about it except tell me to use a feminine condom for intercourse.
Wich isn't that crazy considering it would reduce the friction. I left it like that for a while (and lived with the pain) and then decided to talk about it to my family doctor and then she referred me to a general surgeon and after 1 year of different cream (wich didn't work at all for me except the headache part) decided to go through LIS on October 2014. Been okay for a while and also started self-dilation, coconut oil and relaxation with yoga and breathing exercises to ensure a less *rough* intercourse, and then, catastrophy, bad BM and made a new fissure but internal (can't see it from outside) on top of the other one, wich is completely healed, says my general surgeon. He also told me he wouldn't act on it, it should heal completely by itself but I asked him to have the ointment paired with the LIS he said it could be a good combination. (diltzawhatchamacallit) 4 weeks on it today and seems to be working wonders I don't even flinch when I putt it in there with my finger. (sorry for the graphics)Here's the deal, first, I don't have any pain, constipation or discomfort like some of you seem to have. I eat healthy and exercise but as soon as it's on the intimate part, nervous breakdown, and spasm and pain and soreness and, and, and, you know the rest. I'm at a point that I have stabilized my situation but can't seem to have any more improvement and my boyfriend from the last 10 years is very comprehensive but he can't take my obsession over this anymore. So I decided to find a good way to express myself and leaving him alone because it's a difficult situation as a person but also as a couple, add the gay factor and it's a pure mess.
Also the surgeon didn't know what to tell me anymore so he sends me to see another person who is really a specialist for CRS. Going there on august 3 wich is sooooo far,and I'm really impatient. I just don't feel like a normal person anymore and I really feel like I'm becoming my fissure more than myself because everything I do in my life since the last 3 years is focused on the fissure, as far as eating, bathroom, exercise, sleep etc.
That pretty much sums it up if some things weren't clear just ask.
P.S. A very special thanks to the person who thought of getting this forum on it was a light in the dark for me. I don't feel as much alone because, admit it there are far more glamorous illnesses in the world that have much more visibility and there's absolutely no information whatsoever out there.
