by AnalFizz » 03 Oct 2017, 00:11
ahh I wrote much more, but didn't register for some reason. Thanks for your comment, I'm trying to take it easy.
The discomfort/pain is not that bad to be honest but on Sunday I ended up crying on the bathroom floor due feeling so sorry for myself. 9 months of this is about enough in my opinion (I know there are people here who've had it longer, I feel so sorry for you). At least when I go BM at work, I have something else to try to concentrate on. In Finland most toilets have bidet showers but at work I need to use paper towels to dab myself dry. It irritates the area.
Current normal is that after initial BM, an annoying pressure builds and I need to go to toilet to pass gas and drop a small nodule of feces every half an hour to an hour. This happens 3-6 times before the discomfort eases.
Then when there is no discomfort I'm fully normal, although tired. Fall in Finland is dark and wet experience. I just started to use my light therapy lamp, two weeks too late, but it really helps in a week or so.
This board has been a lifesaver for tips and a great place to vent out.