Hie all
i Have been seeing a specialist afte another one said i needed surgery, but beacuse i was too scared to go for the op i sougt help elsewhere. So after i had another of my serious bleeding episodes i was admitted into hospital and was swollen . had to go on a drip hadnt eaten in days du to the pain and bleedin. So at the hospital a new doc, cruel very nasty tells me i left the good doc hus a specialist surgeon and went to another new doc who is a specialist physician but is not equipped to deal with caseslike mine. So im torn and im told to go back to the old specialist because in my town, he is the only one who can deal with such cases and that there is no way og gettin out of surgery. Im so scared and im goin to see this apparently good specialist 2mrw whom av already seen before and i know wat he is goin to say. is it tym to accept that i have run out of options and that i have to have the operation. wORSE IM a student and this is my last semester. im almost done in few months hn i graduate, if i have the op now, i heard i myt need 3 weeks of recovery which means leavin uni and goin back home and that i cant finish my degree this year. Im so torn, can anyone who has had the anal sphinctoronomy tel me wat its like becoz i cry at nyt wen i sleep imagining the pain il go thru, im already in pain as it is but i cant imagine anythn worse than this. How long does it take to recover and what if sth goes wrong and im in a worse off condition than now before the op, God forbid il just kill myself