by rasmith3530 » 10 Apr 2012, 19:47
Thank you Angel, yes, it has. Aside from the AF stuff, I've been out of comish for almost ten months now due to something going on with my brain/nervous system. I have been quite dependent on others during this time, as I can no longer drive due to "blackouts" that I suffer. The doctors have been passing me around, like I'm the ball out on a soccer field. Since they have no concrete answers, I've been fed drugs like a lab rat, in the hopes that something will work. I've gotten to see the American health care - pharmaceutical - insurance cabal from the dark side, and it has not been a real joy.
My life as I've known it has been stripped from me and I'm now having to discover a new "normal." My domestic situation has been crumbling for more than a decade, and I realize at this point that the situation must change, which is not a comfortable prospect at either this point in my life or in the midst of everything else. Then of course, adding the fissure plus my back injury is just more fuel to the fire
So yes, finding a doctor who truly wants to find answers plus help advocate for me is a Godsend right now. I am finding new avenues of support and am coming up with new ways to feel value in my life. I've also made some really good friends along the way, plus maybe a special friend.
All I can do is to move one day forward at a time, putting one foot in front of another, and hoping that whatever force/power that holds the universe together will continue guiding me in a positive direction.
I do hope that you are feeling better as well. Hugs to everybody. You're all more wonderful than you can imagine.
Peace (and a comfortable bottom),