by K1988 » 21 Mar 2013, 12:37
So first of all please don't judge me, as the title states I am beyond desperate and am only sharing all of this info to try and get help otherwise I see no way of carrying on with my life. I am a 24 year old female and my problems first started about 5 years ago after having anal intercourse (biggest mistake of my life). It first started off with a hemarrhoid, which didnt bother me too much and didnt cause me any problems for 3 years. Stupidly I carried on having anal sex and one day 2 years ago now I knew something was not right after. When I looked with a mirror the only way I can describe it is the skin had split all across the top, when I say split I don't mean a fissure or a cut, it's like the skin has given way. Since then I have suffered with a recurring fissure. However even when the fissure has healed Whenever i go for a BM everything looks normal for about 10 minutes, but after those 10 minutes is when it gets bad. Its as if it relaxes too much and where the skin has split that area swells and feels extremely uncomfortable. Having a shower, bath or even just standing makes it flare up. I have seen 6 doctors, including 2 CRS and they don't understand how I can be in so much discomfort 24/7. I've been prescribed ointments, suppositories, creams, laxatives, everything but nothing has helped. I have also completely changed my diet but again seen no real improvement. I am in complete despair, this is ruining my life and I just can't see any way to go on anymore.