Hello eveyone.
Well it's been a while since I have been here. My first post started in June last year and I last wrote in October.
I have ben fighting the fissure fight for 8 months now.
I had two weeks in October when I thought I was winning, so when I saw the CRS in October, I said I thought I was getting better and didnt want anything other than the Ditz to try. Then in December I saw my CRS again, and asked for two more months on the Ditz as I didnt want to go down the surgery route. Big mistake. It got bad again.
Since mid December I have been in constant pain, with each BM causing the known agony, followed one to two hours later with spasms which would go from zero, to level eight pain with no warning at all. During the day, my poor bum would either spasm, or feel like a red hot poker was being shoved in it, or just burn!
Spasms would last anything from ten minutes, to hours. And the pain killers didnt even touch the sides.
A few weeks ago I got up at 1am and ran a bath as the pain was so bad, and the pain killers were doing nothing. I sat in the bath in agony thinking I could either call an ambulance, or a vet. At that point, a vet seemed the better option because at lease he could put me down! Not a good moment.
Of course I called neither, and eventually worked through the pain like we do.
The only thing I had found that seemed to have some soothing effect, was coconut oil, which I made in the evenings into suppositories, and used three times a day.
I have lost a stone in under three months through living off vegi juices, fruit smoothis, salad, fruit, veg, fish, chicken and soups. Everything that gave me a nice soft Bm each day, even so, it hurt like hell to go. And I now look like Olive Oyl!!
Anyway, on the 20th of Feb, I had a check up with my CRS, who tried to give me a digital exam, which just wasnt happening as I was so sore, and with that, she got her diary out and said she wanted me in her theatre in 12 days time!
So yesterday I was put under and given a Fissurectomy and Botox.
I had a 40 units of Botox injected either side of the fissure, so 80 units in total, and lots of pain releif.
When I came round in the recovery room, I woke up to a man called Adrian sitting next to me, who told me he would be looking after me in recovery. As I lay there, I realised how I felt and burst into tears. Adrian quickly jumped up and asked was I in pain, to which I said....I cant feel my Bum!!! Im so happy I cant feel my Bum!!!
That was yesterday, and now a day later, I still cant feel my bum! I know it wont last and the pain relief will wear off, but ohh just the freedom of pain after eight long months is just the best feeling ever!
I didnt want to go down the Botox route, as I wanted to be able to heal myself. But sometimes we just have to accept that we cant do everything, and there is only so much pain you can go through.
So it's early days, but I am feeling so positive, and my lady CRS was just so lovely that I feel my Bum was in good hands.
I was also happy to get home and get out of the," one size fits all" paper knickers they gave me to wear, which came up to my chest and kept falling down!! haha
Anyway, I hope everyone is having a good day, or at least finding something that helps to ease the pain of these nasty Sharks.
Love & Sunshine to you all. XX