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Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby woundedspirit » 03 Sep 2014, 21:50

Thought I would start a diary to help me work through it all.

Misery and Agony

Misery and Agony
These are my Gods now
They delight to wake me
They plot to take me
I'm now their servant so I bow.

Misery and Agony
Relentless thieves that steal my days
They come to rob
They come to rage
Unwelcome guests, they say they'll stay.

Misery and Agony
Hand in hand they like to walk
They're here to stab
They're here to sting
A brutal pair with silent talk.

Misery and Agony
Move on, dwell here no more
They hold on tight
They have no right
Please depart to distant shores.
Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby msimon » 04 Sep 2014, 00:32

So profoundly worded Woundedspirit. Thanks for sharing :)
Dec '13 Fissure from anoscope
3 X internal sphincter botox
'08-'15 Botox for pelvic floor dysfunction
Nov '14 LIS/sentinel tag removal
Feb '15 Deroofing of recurrent infection from LIS
summer '15-healed but still ongoing muscle dysfunction/pain
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby owmybum » 04 Sep 2014, 13:39

Spot on W's ..... Misery and agony!

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fissure after hem banding and tag removal feb 11
Pelvic floor therapy
Diltiazem
Botox June 13
Nitro
Internal flap July 14
EUA and polyps removed Nov 14
Diagnosed with neuropathy Jan 15
Diagnosed with HS EDS type 3 (causes poor wound healing )
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby woundedspirit » 05 Sep 2014, 00:13

Thanks! Writing always seems to help. Had a blood free day today and had the pain under control by noon and then was very productive! How I love days like today. Looks like a healing cycle coming which is very welcome after 4 rough days.
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Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby Datura » 05 Sep 2014, 04:20

I'm glad you feel a healing period has started. Time is long and arduous when things are paining and hurting relentlessly.
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby woundedspirit » 05 Sep 2014, 19:11

So true. So true!
Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby asdf123456 » 05 Sep 2014, 19:18

Hi Wounded Spirit...you and I have a very very similar backstory. I had a circumferential stricture from a hemorrhoidectomy and two fissures, one posterior, one anterior. I failed every cream, I failed 4x botox, I had LIS which only partly healed one wound. Where are you from? Also, has a surgeon discussed advancement flaps on you in detail? I am wondering how they will heal 2 fissures with advancement flaps. Have they suggested covering each fissure directly with a flap, or leaving them alone and just doing flaps laterally to relieve the scarring?
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby woundedspirit » 06 Sep 2014, 08:01

Hi asdf,
Yes, it sounds like we have similar histories. I am sorry you are suffering the same fate. I am from the midwest. It was a long process finding a colo-rectal surgeon that I felt confident in and comfortable with. But he said for me, it was most important to do as little as possible and still achieve the desired results. He said that I had to be ready for this surgery, I would know when I was ready and that we would discuss the details at that time. There will be several more consultations prior to any surgery to make sure all my concerns are addressed and that I feel I have a full understanding of what will be done. I will be more than happy to share his plan of action as soon as I know. Sorry I don't have more information to share right now!
Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby woundedspirit » 06 Sep 2014, 20:22

Two activities tomorrow at which my presence is required. Things have been pretty manageable last few days. Hoping all goes well in the morning. God please let it be. I have to do this for my family and my husband. I cannot be a no show one more time!!!! So hard to live this way.
Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery
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Re: Wounded Spirit's Diary

Postby msimon » 06 Sep 2014, 22:27

:smilyhug: Wishing you a great day tomorrow Woundedspirit!
Dec '13 Fissure from anoscope
3 X internal sphincter botox
'08-'15 Botox for pelvic floor dysfunction
Nov '14 LIS/sentinel tag removal
Feb '15 Deroofing of recurrent infection from LIS
summer '15-healed but still ongoing muscle dysfunction/pain
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