Hi my dearest friends

- I can not but smile any time I see you all here , no matter how up or down I might feel

!!! It is so comforting that you all have same opinion - that I should go for colonoscopy and sec. opinion too

. If I miss this app. who knows when I would be able to catch this guy if needed - so I better "gear up" my butt for one more probe

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Kimmy-boy - Thanks and I LOVE your new name LOL !!!!!
Val- my buddy

- I was worried too, and I hope that he would recognize one if he sees it - I guess since he will cut it off anyway it will eliminate mini fistula if present - what do you think ?!
Chris - baby - too bad that you can not be more here with us

, we miss you and your experience with those things
Cheryl - thanks for prayers and for thinking about me. I hope your IBS is behaving today ! : ))
Jo- thanks for encouragement and good wishes

, hopefully I will be on road of recovery soon. My butt did hurt little through the night, but BM was pretty good - I think exam relaxed that sphincter somewhat and I was able to poop more easily - I even refused to squat LOL - I decided to stop pampering my butt that much - it is broken anyway : (
Happy - I ADORE your AF dance

- I will start practicing as soon as I finish this post ! Yes, you are right, I should keep that colonoscopy - better to have it now for many reasons ! First - I would hate to have it in couple of years when my fissure is healed and panic that I will reopen one, second - it will hopefully come back OK and nobody will have to worry about inflammatory causes and such and third - as you said - it might even relax that stupid sphincter more and help with healing !
My "Tubby" - how are you today ? Did you get an app. yet ? Yes, we have same icky tags and they have to go before they truly become fistulas and such

! You know, I was thinking, maybe that anal stretch is really good if done with experience since it relaxes outer sphincter too which in my case is tight also

- that is why I always feel better after exam ! I hope you are not in much pain buddy
Lecia - sweetness - thanks so much for yesterday's prayers and being with me before the exam

- love you baby - hope you are not hurting today too much :sprinkleheart:
LOVE TO ALL !!!!!!!!!