Baba, thanks, yes I guess I'll switch then too.
I wasn't crazy about straight up olive oil either. So messy and seemed to soak up faster than the kinds I use that are mixed with a bit of wax and stuff.
I have gone back to the 0.8" as the larger was just too difficult. I can feel the muscles that are stretched and they kind of radiate out from the front of my sphincter. I looked them up and they are called the Transversus Perinei.
i've always wondered if my AF didn't have something to do with the episiotomy I had for my daughter's forceps delivery. That these muscles are so tight and inflexible seems to lend credence to that theory.
http://healthpages.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/perineal-muscles.gifSO best to take it slow, and the smaller size dilator seems to help anyways. Perhaps I don't need to go bigger?
I think of it like when I do the stretch where you sit with your legs out before you and try to touch your toes. If I do this one every day, after 2-3 months I can get my head down to my knees. So perhaps after 2-3 months of dilating, I will be able to get those muscles to loosen up.
-Tanya