Hello board,
Id like to discuss my story and hopefully get some advice to ease my suffering. My quality of life sucks and I feel I have nothing to live for. I'm a homosexual male (Bottom) and I have had a chronic anal fissure for I believe 6 years now. It is not all that painful (is it superficial?). I take around 10 Metamucil capsules a day and eat a lot of fibre. I also take fish oil pills and do sitz baths. I seem to think that my AF heals but EVERY time I try to have anal sex it re-opens and bleeds. I feel I am at risk for HIV. I went to a Colorectal specialist and he seemed to disregard my concern and said "just don't have sex with men" and "nothing was wrong and that its just a cut". He also told me to pray and maybe ill make it into heaven...I was prescribed to Diltazem cream which has done nothing at all. I also try to use virgin coconut oil daily. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scheduled to meet a different specialist and hopefully this one will be more open minded. I feel that I may need cauterization or dilation surgery to help my AF. I need this to go away for good or else I will kill myself. I'm losing hope and I need advice. Is there any success stories of people who enjoy anal sex? Will I ever have be able to do it again? should I try oral Diltazem or nitro? I do not want to have a LIS done i have heard of too many horror stories. PLEASE HELP ME BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!