Missy I was told by my Lovely CRS that spasms can be anything from an aching dull pain, to full on contraction like pain but in your butt.
Like CTT, my spasms were the worst pain I have ever experienced, at one point ending it flew through my mind and if I didn’t have children I may have done so. It’s like your mind knows you have another 12/24 hours of that agony and it can’t comprehend even another hour. I have never in my life been depressed...my brain doesn’t work that way...but that level of pain taught me that there are circumstances in a person life that are just unbearable.
Like you would have been, I was literally begging for LIS, I offered to sign anything they wanted me too to waver responsibility for them if my crohns and the LIS made me incontinent. No one cared and I had to pay private and go through Botox first before I was allowed my LIS...trust me I would have had it at the end of the first hour of spasms.
Since my LIS I have had a couple of fissures which have cleared up quick. With them I have experienced what I would class as mild spasms it’s an ache rather than an all consuming pain.
Due to living with IBS since 11 and crohns since 20 I have never been embarrassed about my digestion and my fissure was no different I openly and often talked about to family, friends and acquaintances. I have also told a class of my fellow students at uni that I brought a big fluffy cushion into uni because I had just had Botox up my butt
it caused a lot of discussion as none of them had ever heard of it.
I wish getting rid of my fissure and my IBS was as easy as getting rid of the trash out of my life. Unfortunately it’s not that easy and like my CRS says some of us will always have enteric brains (the nerves in the stomach and digestion that have a direct link to the hypothalamus) that are more switched on and in this modern age that can cause a problem. We just have to find ways to manage it, as it’s often not curable as such.