I am sorry COP - :( , I did not know you are in so much pain
. I live with chronic pains too, so I can definitely understand how "one more thing" to deal with is just too much to bare
Fissures are known to put life to a halt, for most people they are life changing "event"
and no matter in what stage of life you are - they are devastating
and very hard to deal with. It is impossible not to worry or wonder about health issues in general , just try to concentrate on healing part since statistically speaking , you have more chance to heal than not - about 98% chance
, so try to keep that in mind and repeat it in your mind any time you feel down
!If you have a close friend or a sibling or a parent, ask them to repeat that to you too - I know it helped me GREAT deal when other people believed in my healing and reassured me that all will be fine
.
What pain do you feel now ? Is it at your incision site or in the anus or fissure pain
? How is your bladder infection - I hope it went away ! Except twitching - how do you feel tightness ? Is your anus clenching during BM ?
Is your pain level any better comparing to the first day after the LIS ? Is it there all the time or sometimes ?
Unfortunately, for some people healing is not that fast or straightforward but it does not mean it is not happening
. You will have your post-op very soon and you should ask your CRS many questions and about anything that is worrying you. If you need - put all of your questions on the paper (I always did). You mentioned your Mom is helping you - can you bring her with you to the exam ? She can be your advocate and also remember things doctor would say or ask extra questions. Never be shy to ask and fight for the proper care !!! If you are in pain that is extremely uncomfortable right now - you should ask your CRS for help ! There are many lines of pain killers and also Valium can relax your sphincter and give you peace of mind !
I wish you fast healing Passion and keep us posted about your progress
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