day... not sure actually. but I'm doing well. BM's no longer hurt!! just the residual pain after thats the problem it's more of a tight sting that only lasts a few seconds each time. I start my new job on the 21st of Oct so looking forward to that, ironically I will be working where I had my last two operations!!
I'm back to using GTN again every night which may be helping heal what's left of the incision site - its been around 6/7 weeks now I think. (time flies when your having fun!)

My main problem at the moment is a Jock-itch type issue, where my groin, perenium etc are sooo itchy and red from sitting on hot bottles all day, the skin has just got an infection and is so sore. need to mention it to my surgeon when I see him friday.

I hope hope hope this is the beggining of the end of this ordeal for me now.
FF x

Fingers crossed for you! Good luck on Friday. Let us know how it goes.

Thanks MS,

I don't know if anyone has had the same issue as me but I just don't know what to say to him. I feel 80% there at the moment but there are times like last night where I put on my GTN and my sphincter stung like mad. I can still feel a rough patch of tissue at the 12 aclock position that was there pre-op and I get a lot of discomfort from that area. I don't know if he will suggest another op to me but I will see. will keep you posted
FF x

Perhaps physio...Scar tissue can be treated this way too, by softening it and making it more pliable. Cutting more just makes more scar tissue.

I had my CRS review, he thinks I'm doing well which is great so I wont be seeing him for another 6 months.

in myself I'm feeling well, gained weight (up to 12 stone now!!!) when all this started I was 9 and a half stone and 6'4, I was a skeleton. so that's good, only bad thing is I had to throw most of my clothes away to get bigger ones!

pain wise I'm not too bad, got a bit of a twinge/itch after every BM at the 1pm position that I doubt will go away. but I'm in a much better place than a year ago :) so counting my lucky stars

aghhh this morning had a ping of pain (best way I could describe it) at the 11 position with my BM, it was hard to pass and I knew something would happen, (I'm still on all my softeners maybe my body has built up a tolerance)

oh well post BM pain isnt bad at all.

pain whilst going to the loo is back *groan* its at the 11am position and its sharp when I pass a stool then it dissapates quite fast. No blood luckily. sigh.

I'm meant to be on holiday next week but looks like it's going to be a holiday led in bed! swimming in the sea/salt water pool might be good for me?

FF

I'm back from holiday!!! THANK GOD.
it was awful Greek food all week (cheese and pastry with fruit) and you have to buy all water in bottles at 5 euros a pop. I just couldn't even get to 1 litre a day - couldn't afford it. Every bowel movement was agony again but was regular. I got in the hot tub to relax, it was salt water too so thought it would be good for me. a jet hit the area and even through my swim shorts I felt a rip as the water shot up, i had to run to the loo across the grounds and ended up having a bit of an accident just before I got to the loo (luckily the hotel staff were very kind) it was so embarrassing. I got home today and was just angry with myself and tried a bit of minor diletation to stop the spasms and made everything 20 times worse. I'm trying to buy my house still and nothing is easy for me! stress stress stress. BUT - no blood for a month now.

FF x

BM today - small pain but using the shower after sent daggars through my sphincter once again- micro tears?

last night had a bit of a thought that I may have stenosis post scar excision? meaning every time i try to dilate or have a slightly larger BM I cause microtears?

its awful

no spasms post bm though, which is weird if im having micro fissures.

Don't know what you are using when you dilate, but I used Sliquid Organics, and these worked very well for me. This is the link in case you'd like to look: http://sliquid.com/full-width/sliquid-o ... tural-gel/

I also used Soothe Organic Anti-Bacterial Anal Lubricant - 4 oz from Intimate Organics, just to vary them from time to time.