just wanted to let everyone know i made it thru okay! the dr did a fissurectomy and cleaned out what was a small fistula tunnel. he said it's good i had the surgery b/c it was very inflamed and never would've healed on it's own. i'm in horrible pain right now. i just took a bath and removed the outer gauze. i guess there's some gel foam type packing inside, sounds similar to what jen had. they said it'll come out w/ my BM or in the bath.
i'm taking tons of pain meds to deal with it, but also drinking lots of water to prevent the dreaded constipation. the dr wants me to take 2 tablespoons of mineral oil at night, along with a small dose of MOM if i really want to.
all in all i'm in a really good place mentally right now. i'm dealing well with the pain and havent had any panic attack/freak outs so far...even when blood started dripping down my leg after i stood up awhile ago! i'm looking forward to taking it easy for a few weeks and giving this thing a chance to heal up. thanks to everyone who wished me well for today!!!
tabby- i'm glad your surgery went well too! soon we'll both be free from this! :)