hi juney,
i too in my going into the fourth year felt desperate and hopeless and just out of options despite not having even considered the LIS just knowing that wasn't what i wanted to do.
i hope the wellbutrin is working and i am currently taking a muscle relaxant (for an auto accident almost three years ago). i had read about it - cyclobenzaprine - and wonder if anyone else has tried it.
like you, i had the pain tango and i would have some very good days, some good days, and then it seemed like a setback with pain mostly that would just erase any good days i had.
the good thing from what i remember, is that you rarely had good days so it is refreshing to read that you can state that and that perhaps you are getting to the top of that hill where pretty soon you will be over the worst, and you will have easy coasting in the future.
i've gained like 15 pounds working at my new job and thus has taken me away from this board for the last six months...now that my conference is over, i have to work on working off those 15 pounds.
i desperately want to go back to macrobiotics.