Thankfully it was just the 3 so I added a few more carbs in and I have been fine again for 3 days, one BM a day at Bristol 3 with minor to no discomfort...I truly cannot believe how much difference the consistency of my BM makes, just wish I could find a way to achieve this for ever lol.
I have managed the cinema twice this week thanks to the good BMs it's nice to get out and enjoy life...but must admit to being a bit jealous that I cannot eat what I would like as I'm too scared to experiment at the moment, and it's slightly annoying going out for a meal and watching everyone have cocktails while I have a cup of tea....but I'm out of the house I'm spending quality time with family and friends and I'm not in pain so really do I care about those two things...heck no!!
Well fingers crossed for a nice week with a firm BM once a day lol

That's wonderful news! I am so so happy for you . Actually for me experimenting with eating more and new things seems to have helped. Relaxing with friends and family between travels has helped even more.glad you are having the quality movements which change our life and world view on how things will be after!
Hope today and this week is wonderful and quiet with the fissure but even if a day or two takes you backward - you KNOW life is good!
Which movies did u see?
Best HTD

Hi HTD,
Yes it does help getting out and trying to live life like we did before the fissure. I wish I could experiment but even before the fissure I had to make a choice of whether a food or drink was worth the many trips to the toilet...often before the food would win and I would just deal with the trips to the loo...now post fissure nothing is worth multiple trips to the toilet lol, so food never wins
We saw petes dragon and suicide squad they were both really good.
Had another good day yesterday two BMs within and hour but both Bristol 3 so only discomfort not pain. Off to gym this morning then work

Great to hear you are better! Keep me posted!

I'm doing ok thanks had a really good week to be honest no multiple trips to the toilet so no pain. Even managed to have a full week with no codeine and only 3 loperamide. Although had a very stressful day at work yesterday and have had tummy cramps all night so not expecting a pleasant day ahead just hoping I don't go too often but it doesn't feel promising.
It's so annoying that even after a good week my bowel can still react like this I try to meditate and my brain let's go of the stress quite easily don't understand why my stomach reacts so bad. But I have had my IBS since I was a teenager so don't think it's going to stop now just because a fissure has taken up residence.

I really understand . The body feels different with this fissure. I think getting used to a routine of not expecting too much is what I will adopt. In the sense - I plan not to expect normalcy in the near future. Maybe never. I think this helps me bear the bad days without too much disappointment. The meditation you are doing is great. I had let up on it lately but inspired by you will start again.
I am so glad you have been pain free atleast and enjoying life on those good days.
Hugs
HTD

Well just had the one BM so far Bristol 3 so no pain....am really hoping that's all for today and that the cramps were just a false alarm. Yes I agree I have come to realise that my fissure like my IBS maybe a companion through my life now and that fighting against it is pointless. I am trying to embrace my good days and accept the bad with the strong hope that it's is temporary. I think I need the meditation as my enteric brain plainly cannot relax on it's own. I am eternally grateful that I did the Botox as it gave me back my sanity and reminded me that life can be pain free.

Glad the cramps were false alarm. Hope you don't have to work this weekend? Hope you have a peaceful no pain weekend. So much of this is mental - believing you are better gets you there faster don't u think?
The IBS - hopefully behaves itself - that definitely helps your fissure.
How is work stress?
Take care and hugs
HTD

No work this weekend thankfully but lots of marking to do at home gggrrrr lol
Yes I do believe that it was a very stressful period that actually caused my fissure so I'm trying to learn to let go, I tend to rationalise and want to see every point of view where I'm begining to think I should just get angry and let it all out.
Had a BM this morning Bristol 3 had to sit down straight after to Skype my manager so def felt discomfort whilst sat but that went after 30 mins, really wish I could guarantee a Bristol 3 once a day, I'm sure I could heal fully if I managed that but my IBS is so complex I often don't know what triggers it

Hi friend, glad weekend was ok. It's funny - I actually pray for 3 or 4 soft BM a day as I feel if I go more there will be no dry residue to hurt me. I do do believe you will heal even if you go more often. Do not worry too much about the IBS - you will heal no matter what.
I am like you see 10 sides of a coin when really being dogmatic about right and wrong may make a problem simpler . Oh well - it takes all kinds to make a world I guess :)
Take care my dear
Hugs MPB