Keep going, don't forget it is easy to get re-tear. Keep with diet at least for month more!

Great work SS. Seems like you are over your retear!

Thanks guys, i'm so hoping so! It's been a strange weekend as it's the first weekend I have gone out for a meal...twice! The first time was a chinese buffet so I just had prawns, some soft chicken and lots of veggies. I also had a small bit of egg foo young but was a bit scared to eat it so I covered it in veggies and just had a bit. Tonight I went out with my lovely husband and we had mediterannean, I phoned ahead and they got sweet potato in for me which was very nice of them, so I had mushroom to start and then chicken with veggies and sweet potato, but I was still too scared to eat all the chicken. I also had a few vodkas and orange juice but when I got home I had lots of water. The thing I miss most is bread, I would give anything for a slice of toast but NOTHING is worth the pain. Also they had fresh garlic bread and pizza on the menu which I would have died for. My other half didn't have it either bless him (and he normally would) he didn't say anything but I think he didn't want to eat it in front of me...probably for fear I might leap over the table and demolish it lol. I wonder when I will eat 'normally' again, probably never. I will probably never had bread or any carbs again, which is so strange, but at the moment I am purely concentrating on healing, that's more important than food.

Day 31

10.00 - A 5 BM, sore to go (not painful) but there was blood in the stool and on the paper. Was very sore afterwards and had to take pain killers

Hmm SS, doesn't sound good... Did you feel a sting at the fissure site while going?

I never had any luck with painkillers, they simply didn't work for me. Do they work well for you, and what kind are you taking?

I know :-( Yes I felt a sting at the fissure site when going, I pretty much always do :-( and while I am wiping myself clean, it only goes once that has been done and I've had a sitz. I take anadin extra which is amazing and it works, I had loads of prescription medicine but nothing worked as well as it.

Day 32

No BM

Day 33

19.00 - A '4' BM, not painful to go but sore-ish afterwards. There was also some blood present.

DAY 34

08.30 - A '4' BM, sore to go and a bit sore afterwards but no blood.

Keep fighting SS!

Even with this recent retear, you still have botox protecting your butt for a couple of months.
Hopefully the soreness will turn into just irritation soon.

Hi sugarspice

While JHH must be thinking this is deja vu all over again, I could not
help but notice when you mentioned...

and while I am wiping myself clean,

.

So I was wondering what you use to wipe and if its actually a sweeping
wipe motion or a more gentler dabbing type wipe, which can sure
reduce the stinging and burning afterwards. If at home after a bm
many will forego wiping totally and just hop in the shower to clean up.

BTW, I was saying the same thing with the bread, I love it too, but those
sub sandwiches along with too many whole wheat slices were giving me rock
hard stools.

It was only when I drastically cut back to a few slices per week and about one per
one meal/day that my recurring fissures vanished. Yeah, but as you say during your actual
battles I did not touch bread.

GL to you, you seem to be doing ok with the botox.