Hi Rachael,
Not doing too great here I'm afraid. I'm working full time still as financially I'm in so much trouble if I stop work as I'm buying my first house at the mo and my current employer doesn't offer more than 2 weeks sick pay.
I just don't understand it, having my bowels open doesn't hurt!!! maybe a pinch but nothing in comparison to before. then after when I'm walking back to my office it feels amazing, I can feel my cheeks rubbing together with no pain and it's all pretty groovy. then an hour down the line suddely the tugging burning pain comes in at 6 oclock and then I get home to shower off and as soon as the jet of water hits my sphincter it's like daggers!!! then I stand up to dry off and it feels as though my tag is pulled as taught as it could be (maybe as it's dry?) and pulls on the scar tissue making me yelp. now I'm sat downstairs on a cushion for a bit of relief.
what's happening to me?
I've got my CRS appt on the 9th of feb and now I'm willing to do ANYTHING to get better. I'm stressed at work, I'm stressed trying to buy my house and this is just the cherry on the cake. I can't see myself living with this forever. I'm very lucky however not to feel like I'm passing glass anymore but I'm still in considerable pain for up to 7 hours of the day.
J x