by derryboy » 25 Jan 2009, 07:39
Corsica thank you, yes its a nice wee place to be part off here.
well last night i was lucky if i got 2 hrs sleep. the mind just starts buzzing and thats that, you just can stop it racing,
i feel so drained tbh, its a never ending vicious circle.
am at breaking point i know i am, i can feel it inside.
i think after all those docs told be i was in for an op, nd a man comes in for the 1st time has a very quick check, nd say no op, its very very dishearting,
you come home after all that nd people say "haha told ya there was nowt wrong ya lazy idiot, its just an excuse not to move "
god i only pray none of them ended up feeing as i do.
am just wasting away in the house, sore wen i walk, stand, drive(must be at least 5 weeks since i done that)
am doing everything the gp, etc told me to do,
all this makes me feel useless, nd very lonely.
i have no1 to turn to, well i do but i dont want them to carry my worries,
and the way i was left feeling by a certain senior dr/ or wot ever he was, makes me so down, and everyone else think its all a joke, its all a put on.
trust me if i was a dog id asked to be put down