Aw thanks ETO, really appreciate it. Thanks for all the replies guys. I have tried something different, having half a sachet of movicol in the morning and half at night seems to lessen the sickness alot. I want to try and get off it altogether as feel like I am taking rather alot of laxatives but going to try and do it gradually. I think my skin complaint flaring up hasn't helped, plus the dermatologist giving up has affected me. Good news is I was only constipated for 2 days and things have steadily improved a bit since. I still get really bad pain during bm, but it fades alot after. I still have to take ibuprofen if I'm going out as walking is still a challenge at times but its not regularly. I'm trying to balance going for a short walk each day with rest. I have decided to ring up and find out when my follow-up appointment is so I can hopefully get some answers to my questions and make sure this is all normal or get him to check whether there is anything else going on. Plus have a date to focus on so I don't feel like I am drifting. I may have been affected by other stress, in that my friends husband died a week ago and I went to his funeral yesterday. It was quite inspiring actually, and he lived with alot of pain and had heart trouble. Puts mine into perspective and makes me realise I still should be grateful for what I can do.
I had thought about that Andy, I wish they would listen to me when I say I don't actually want children. There is always that option I suppose, though the future pain like this doesn't appeal!! Anyway enough about me, think I have too much time to think about things now I'm on holiday! Hows is everyone else doing? Thisfissure and ETO, are things improving for you? Andy, has your pain level got better? Thanks again for the replies, it makes a difference to speak to people who are going through the same/a similar experience