Well I just can't take this crap anymore!! I am having pain now from the eleven o clock site on BM and after. Right now I feel like there's a knife up my bottom! And the spasms.....AGH. I visited my GP on Friday and I really went to town, told her how this is totally controlling my life, I've cut my hours at work too....it's really affecting everything. What really pigs me off, is the Fact that the last CRS said I have a normal Anus. No way, I feel like nobody believes me or doesn't want to help me.
She is writing to the new CRS to see if she can speed it up. If this new one doesn't sort me I am paying private, I don't care how much it costs.... I want my life back.

Ohhhhhh wee racheal thats terrible!!! Hopefully u will hear somthg soon from the new crs and he will really take the time to look at u and do somthg to releive all ur pain once and for all. Hang in there wee woman u will get there i am thinking and praying for you. Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thinking and praying for you too Rachael.

Good luck rachael.

Awww rachael praying for you 24/7. Don't be disappointed, these set-backs are only bringing you closer to your recovery!! xoxo <3

Rachel, I hope things turn around. We all know what you're going through. Just remember the high you feel when you get one of those evasive good days!

Thank you everyone! I love you all. This hell pain is worsening again! I had a bristol 4 today. Still soft and I'm still in damn pain! This hell is ruining my life!! I just want to jump under a train again.... Help!!!!! Might go back to the Nitro for the hundredth time, but then it will irritate me. Can anyone suggest anything? I do Magnesium, movicol, diet, Vaseline. Had Botox. Ugh. Anyone tried Forever living Aloe vera?!

Sore today from the runs.... I want to wake up and this hell to be over..... Wonder if I could be put in a coma until it heals.. I wouldn't have to poop.

Hey R. Hang in there. Things will get better!

When is your next appointment with your CRS? Have you thought about another botox or LIS maybe?

/J