by woundedspirit » 07 Sep 2014, 21:41
Thanks msimon and OMB. Had a great day! It is days like today that make me glad I did not commit suicide on one of those horrible days!! lol. (seriously I swear I have momentarily thought about it as I am sure we all have at one time or another). But I can see where this condition could make one Bi-polar! I am so glad I started this diary. I can already see how sad and depressing my posts are when I am in all that pain and how my spirits lift as the pain eases. I smiled a lot today, I laughed and even made my husband laugh! It felt good like how things were before the fissures. And I am still totally fissure pain free at the moment. I don't even want to go to bed but want to linger in this pain free zone and drink in all the joy of it. When I look back in my diary I will look back fondly on this day. I know I should not do this to myself, but feeling the way I do right now, I hold out just a teeny weeny, itsy bitsy thread of hope that I could heal all the way this time without anymore surgery. Silly girl.
Hemorrhoid Surgery
Scar Tissue
2 Anal Fissures
Failure of All Topical Treatments
Failed LIS
[size=85]EUA and Fissurectomy
Hoping to avoid Flap Surgery