Dear GG, I'm so sorry to hear you are suffering so much. Have you had an endoscopy done to check your stomach for any problems? And you know what, sh** happens in everyone's life sooner or later. It's natural to feel jealous of those who go about their lives without apparent problems. I know I feel that way sometimes, and it can cause us to move further away from others and deprive us of vital support.
I hope the new gastro that you get referred to can help you out. It's awful to go through something with no end in sight. With my chronic skin problem, doctors can give me no timeline on when it will get better, so I just try to focus on one day at a time, and not anticipate future pain. Our brains are designed to protect us from pain, and when there's no easy solution, the brain goes nuts trying to find one. This just adds to stress. The mind strives to protect, but can make things harder to bear. Just being aware of that can sometimes help reduce suffering. Many hugs and good wishes to you.
