From what I read, Im sure you have a fissure. If botox helped there is still hope. Whats important is to keep stools soft, and give the area a chance to heal. I also apply nitro/dilt right after shower when the muscle is most relaxed, and before the spasms starts. Im not sure how important it is to get it all the way up there, but I do my best.
Im taking olive oil, husk and magnesia. 9 out of 10 BMs are perfect consistency, and the last one isnt that bad. I have learned to control my stolls by diet, but the price is that I eat just about the same day in and day out. Rather that than the endless hours of burning pain right!?
Anyway, stick around, educate yourself, and hopefully heal in time. Its a long slow process, so dont expect changes overnight!

CrackinUp wrote:I don't think they are purple no. Mine isn't. Are you still pushing when you go? You might think I'm mad but you can go without any pushing, it just takes practise. I had no idea until 5 days ago... I've always pushed, just sometimes not as hard as others !!
+ This whole site is TMI so don't worry about it. We all embrace butt love now, lets face it (no not that kind of butt love!! lol! )

I haven't been pushing, just letting it come out now. Maybe sitting in Sitz baths has caused the Hem? How do you do it?

Day 35 on nitro (5 weeks)
Perfect painless BM. Waited and applied nitro when burning started an hour later. Burned for about an hour, then just some discomfort.
Then 3 hours later again some burning for 1/2 hour until I slapped some dilt on. Now just discomfort. (Not pain, just that feeling of something feels wrong back there)
I seems to be at a standstill...

JHH and Crackin.... I posted on my thread but wanted to make sure u got this.... Id say its worth a try..... If u cant find any, let me know....-----Hello to anyone who reads. I did figure out a great way to keep stool soft. I was taking it for a kidneystone i previously had 4 years ago(my naturalpath said it can help dissolve it)... A great fyi for anyone u know of going thru it. I had forgotten all about it but after being so so desperate i went back and got a bottle first thing this morning. Its called 'liquid chloroform'. Its a green liquid u take with water daily as a dietary supplement.... I had 3 painless bowel movements today! It says to take it daily so i was for a while. I did take it after what i i had thought was the worst pain ever in the kidney stone 4 yrs ago and it did dissolve it and allow it to pass! Obviously after having this i now know what pain is. Im gonna take this stuff again forever.....fyi. It will turn your BM green.... Dont panic.....hendrick. Good luck to all of us dealing with this horrible condition....

Hey JHH can u tell me what your diet is every day? I really dont mind eating the same thing everyday.... Just want to continue getting more consistent without that plug effect.....

8 o'clock
1 spoon oliveoil with a glass of water
1/2 a bowl of oatmeal
1 bowl of yoghurt
10-15 almonds (chewed well)
Husk (psyllium seeds)
Magnesia
11 o'clock
1 slice of rugbrшd with mackarel
12 o'clock
Apple
14 o'clock
1 spoon oliveoil with water
2 slices of rugbrшd with leverpostej
16 o'clock
1 banana
18 o'clock
1 spoon oliveoil with water
1 slice of rugbrшd with mackarel
Patato/rice/pasta and a little meat (this varies from day to day)
Husk (psyllium seeds)
21 o'clock
Yoghurt
The lots of water during the day.
Dont know the english term for some of the things I eat, so have a look here to understand:
Leverpostej: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leverpostej
Rugbrшd: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rugbrшd

Oops sorry guys! Its liquid chlorophyl. Not chloroform. Stupid predictive text.....

Day 36 on nitro
Perfect soft BM, but halfway through I felt a sharp pain from the fissure. Like something has scraped it.
Luckily nothing bad seems to have happened, since the aftermatch was pretty much as usual. A few hours of pain, and then fine for the rest of the day.

Day 37 on nitro
Had the plug again
And not just any plug, it felt like giving birth to a bowling ball, and took like 10 minutes to build up courage to press it out. Since I still dont know how badly this will affect my day, I will update again later.

Noooo! Hope you are okay JHH. I had a dodgy tummy lastnight after tea and had to get there quick....
Not too sure if it was an IBS attack, and now i am burning......... Pray together x